June: 18. The Lord was good to me, and mine in many outward mercies, my wife holds up her head very cheerfully through mercy, with which I trust god will more and more remember her that we may yet more and more praise him; my heart very dead and listless in respect of what I would enjoy, though I cannot but own god in much goodness to me whereof, I am altogether unworthy, the lord accept me in the beloved.