May. 15. God good in outward mercies, and the season, my dear wife , and Jane not well, lord revive them, and comfort them for thy name sake, god was good to me in the word and work of the Sabbath, but I find much deadness on my heart I have not that inward life, nor zeal for acts of worship which formerly I was wont to have and find, lord recover me to light and life in yourself.