30. Heard Mr Eldred by letter forbade the payment of my 20li. my wood. gave no reason for it(.) lord I have given him no cause. he sent me word I had business of my own I should not trouble myself with his mother . she had children of her own to look after her. I know lord them and their care. love to my dear friend and her put me to it. the letter was brought on the lords day morning on which a pay was due. lord let not man have their will on me, I look unto thee to save me: my thoughts bade me stand still and see the salvation of god: I will stand still. next morning in course read. Heb. 10. lord I desire thy mercy to break his heart and preserve me.