Feb: 5: The weather was for divers days wintery, cold winds with frost, and snow; god good to me in the health of my relations, in creating me a heart willing to be nothing, and to choose my portion with an afflicted suffering christ in his truths, and ordinances, my heart very dead and wretched under ordinances, the lord even said to me I shall desire to see one of the days of the sons of men which I now see and shall not, arm for trials and I have enough.