March. 5: This week the Lord good to me and mine in our outward mercies. I hope my sons ague somewhat abates. the weather very dry, cold and frosty: the lord lets me see into the vanity of my heart, but I cannot live on god, with that sweet enjoyment and taste of him, which saints have found, and I have tasted, my spirit is very dead and drowsy, and much without god, the lord think upon me with quickening grace.