17: I desire now to mind gods goodness to me on the occasion of my An's sickness. I was sensible of that strangeness fallen in between god and me, not having had any signal evidence of his taking notice of me in prayer, and desired my An's life yet with submission, which I received, and desire to wear it as a pledge of his kindness to me, over and above I was sensible what a mercy it was my child was not snatched away on a sudden without any warning to me, and further god made my heart very submissive to him in what he should do with mine, John ill suddenly, but it was only a qualm, oh that my heart were raised up to close walking with my god.